Sunday, March 11, 2007

We Survived!!


We have finally rounded the corner on sickness at our house. Poor baby Tyler got a nasty cold that developed into an ear infection. AND during the two and a half weeks that he was sick he got his first two teeth. Needless to say we have had many sleepless nights around here. It is taking a concerted effort to get Tyler back in his sleeping/eating routine.

My sweet baby turned 6 months on Feb 17 - the day before he got sick. The sickness delayed the introduction of solid foods so we just started that new adventure this past Friday. He's doing pretty good - I have to get some of those great food on the face pictures to share. He is just so cute!! I forgot how many faces they can make when trying new food.

I'm very tired, but Matthew and Tyler keep me smiling, especially when they get to laughing at each other.

Warm Blooded

Need I say more?!?!

Latest Antics

I made Matthew a protein shake for breakfast. Apparently he decided it was a better hair conditioner/skin treatment regimen. Needless to say the next place he found himself was in the bathtub.

Me and My Boys


Steve captured a sweet moment with both boys in my lap.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Musings on Literature

I was visiting some other blog sites and found a book recommendation that I am going to pass on. The book, Total Truth: Liberating Christianity from Its Cultural Captivity by Nancy Pearcey, is reminiscent of How Should We Then Live?: The Rise and Decline of Western Thought and Culture by Francis A. Schaeffer. Francis Schaeffer was a major part of my syllabis for a class I took my Senior year in college titled Christian World View. That class was probably the most memorable of all my college studies. Schaeffer can be very heady and it takes a bit of stick-to-it-ivness (not a word I know, but it works here) to read, but it is well worth the effort. I ordered Total Truth this evening and from the few excerpts I have read I am sure reading her book will be just as rewarding. I'll let you know!

At the suggestion of another fellow blogger, Lisa, I have started reading Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell. My response has been mixed. On the one hand I find his style and questions freeing. For the first time, it seems I have been given permission as a Christian to not have all the answers. He is asking some of the same questions I have pondered and been afraid to ask. At the same time, his questions unhinge me and give me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. Because he intimates that we never can have all the answers. I come from a pretty black and white church background. If there is a question, there is an answer and the Bible has it. But I love the fact that Rob Bell's musings point out the fluidity and aliveness of the Bible. Of course it is alive and relevant and full of hope, the author is alive and relevant and full of hope.

Those are my thoughts thus far. Again, I'll let you know.

Monday, February 19, 2007

New Bed

Matthew finally graduated to a full size bed. I would often here him in his toddler bed at night banging up against the sides so we figured it was time. Here are a few pictures of both boys enjoying the comfiness.





Friday, February 16, 2007

Cool Kidz!!



Matthew and Tyler and their sunglasses. Tyler got really mad when I tried to put his on so they became something to cut that first tooth on.

Chubby Legs




Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Grandma Lives in Washing Machine!

I was at work today heavily engrossed in my spreadsheet of numbers when my phone rang. I was expecting a client call so braced myself for a compaint to deal with. Instead I heard the voice of my babysitter. Of course I feared the worst, then thought.... I know I packed diapers. Instead Nancy asks me, where does Matthew's Grandma live? I mentally shook my head to readjust my thinking and said he has two, one lives in New York and the other in Washington State. Nancy started laughing and told me she asked Matthew where his Grandma lives and his response was..."My Grandma lives in washing machine." We were both lost in laughter for a few moments before hanging up. Oh the brain of a three year old!

Friday, February 09, 2007

Kilarious



Matthew thought that it was "kilarious" (his version of the word) that he was stuck in the chair.

Tyler, Jump Up!



Tyler loves his new toy. Of course I have to keep telling Matthew not to bounce his brother. :-)

Wrestling Hat


Matthew loves to wrestle with his Daddy. Steve's hat got turned into a "bad man" hat as soon as Matthew discovered it.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Is it about the coffee or the cup?

I found this on another blog site and had to share it.

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In most cases it is just more expensive and, in some cases, even hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... And then you began eyeing each other's cups.

Now consider this: Life is the coffee; -- the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of Life we live. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee God has provided us.""God brews the coffee, not the cups.... Enjoy your coffee!" The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.

""Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God. You are the miracle, my friend. Your life either shines a light - or casts a shadow. Live Simply, Love Generously, Care Deeply, Speak Kindly and Leave the Rest to God.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Ruined Budget

I've decided that office depot and all the companies who make all the new toys and gadgets sold there, are to blame for office supply budgets that have gone through the roof. I can't go into office depot without finding some new notebook, pen, or gadget that just looks too fun to be without. The fun part is that I sometimes get to buy stuff for work with someone else's money instead of my own. But since my co-worker Tammi and my boss are both fans of the store too it gets hard to control costs.

Whatever happened to simple three ring notebooks and manila folders?

I've always been a sucker for a great report cover, but now I have to keep myself out of that store or I'll be color coordinating my desk the same way I do my closet!!! :-)

Monday, February 05, 2007

Serious Concern

Colorado legislaters have joined other states in their desire to mandate the new HPV vaccine for little girls. As with many vaccines the facts seem to be left out of the discussion when proponents get talking. So, I thought I would post some of them. I listed my questions on this issue at the end.

These bullet points are taken from the Alliance for Cervical Cancer Prevention:
http://www.path.org/files/RH_natural_history_of_cc_fs.pdf
• Human papillomavirus (HPV), a common sexually transmitted infection, is the primary underlying cause of cervical cancer.
• Preventing HPV transmission is very difficult. Barrier contraceptive methods are only partially effective because the virus can exist throughout most of the anogenital area (including areas not covered by male condoms) and can remain infectious for years.
• Although HPV cannot be treated, in the majority of cases, the infection becomes undetectable. In a small percent of women, however, HPV infection persists and leads to precancerous lesions, called dysplasia. Immunocompromised women may be at particularly high risk of persistent infection.
• Detectable HPV infection is most common in younger women. Although prevalence varies among regions, it generally reaches a peak of about 20 percent among women aged 20 to 24, with a subsequent decline to approximately 8 to 10 percent among women over age 30.
Of the small percent of women whose HPV infection develops into dysplasia, the majority likely will develop only mild dysplasia, which usually regresses or does not progress, particularly among women under age 35. Few women who develop dysplasia will progress to cervical cancer.
• Progression to detectable, precancerous lesions can take as long as 10 years. One study estimates that the risk of progression from moderate to severe precancerous lesions is 32%within 10 years.
• Women aged 35 or older with identified moderate or severe precancerous lesions are at highrisk for developing cancer.
• Cervical cancer most often develops in women after age 40 and is most frequent among women in their fifties and sixties.8,9,10
• Tobacco use, young age at first birth, use of oral contraceptives, and the hormonal and physical implications of high parity appear to independently increase a woman’s risk of cervical cancer.
• Clinical impressions of increasing cervical cancer rates among younger women may reflect apopulation’s age structure or screening patterns rather than a shift in age-specific rates.
• Infrequent screening and associated follow-up of women in their thirties or older is an acceptable, cost effective approach to preventing cervical cancer, assuming that the screening approach is effective, coverage is high, and there is a reliable link to treatment.
• Women with at least one previous negative cervical smear have low rates of invasive cancer for ten or more years.
• Modeling of data from South Africa suggests that even screening women just once in their lives, at age 35 could reduce cervical cancer mortality by 26 percent.

These next two paragraphs are taken directly from the CDC website.
http://www.cdc.gov/std/HPV/STDFact-HPV-vaccine.htm#hpvvac1
All types of HPV can cause mild Pap test abnormalities which do not have serious consequences. Approximately 10 of the 30 identified genital HPV types can lead, in rare cases, to development of cervical cancer. Research has shown that for most women (90 percent), cervical HPV infection becomes undetectable within two years. Although only a small proportion of women have persistent infection, persistent infection with "high-risk" types of HPV is the main risk factor for cervical cancer.
A Pap test can detect pre-cancerous and cancerous cells on the cervix. Regular Pap testing and careful medical follow-up, with treatment if necessary, can help ensure that pre-cancerous changes in the cervix caused by HPV infection do not develop into life threatening cervical cancer. The Pap test used in U.S. cervical cancer screening programs is responsible for greatly reducing deaths from cervical cancer. The American Cancer Society estimates that in 2006, over 9,700 women will be diagnosed with cervical cancer and 3,700 women will die from this cancer in the U.S. Most women who develop invasive cervical cancer have not had regular cervical cancer screening.


And from the Merck website (the drug company to profit from mandatory vaccination):
http://www.merck.com/newsroom/press_releases/research_and_development/2005_1006.html
"It is estimated that approximately 20 million men and women in the United States are infected with HPV. In most people, HPV goes away on its own. In some, however, certain high-risk or oncogenic types of HPV can lead to cervical cancer. The virus is also associated with abnormal Pap tests and genital warts. Each year, about one million women in the United States are told they have "an abnormal Pap" - which may trigger additional testing, anxiety, and in some cases fears of cancer. About 30% of cervical cancers will not be prevented by the vaccine, so it will be important for women to continue getting screened for cervical cancer (regular Pap tests). "

From the National Library of Medicine:
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/entrez/query.fcgi?db=pubmed&list_uids=16950013&cmd=Retrieve&indexed=google
"Many questions remain concerning long-term efficacy, correlates of protection, age of vaccination, and delivery. As vaccination makes inroads as a cancer control strategy, screening practices must be reformulated to maximize the synergy between primary and secondary prevention. Research on how to achieve an efficient combination of these modalities is yet to begin, but mathematical models have provided a useful road map for field-testing of promising algorithms. Daunting questions loom large concerning delivery of vaccines to those populations that need it the most. The field of HPV and cervical cancer prevention has never been so multi-disciplinary. A new era has begun and the challenges are many."

So my questions:

- Shouldn't the money being spent on this vaccination be used to improve the PAP Smear and detection of the HPV viruses that are most likely to cause the cancer so there are less false positives?

-Of the 3,900 women who died of cervical cancer in 2005 how many of them were 50 or over? How many followed a faithful yearly PAP test schedule? How many were immunocompromised? How many used Oral contraceptives or tobacco,?

- The 5,000 girls/women world wide who participated in this study were only followed for 18 months to two years after receiving the vaccine. Is that long enough?

- Should citizens be injected against their will with biological agents that can injure and kill for what the state has defined as the common good? From the National Vaccine Information Center "more than $1 billion [has been] awarded to vaccine casualties under the National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act of 1986."

- Why do so many American citizens succumb to fear instead of looking for the facts and claiming responsibility for their own lives by making informed decisions? Physicians and drug companies bank on fear. From Merck "Each year, about one million women in the United States are told they have "an abnormal Pap" - which may trigger additional testing, anxiety, and in some cases fears of cancer."

- How many girls who recieve this vaccine will feel "safe" and "protected" from Cervical cancer and so put off getting a PAP test done annually? From the CDC "About 30% of cervical cancers will not be prevented by the vaccine, so it will be important for women to continue getting screened for cervical cancer (regular Pap tests)."

- Why a vaccination for HPV when the #1 killer of women is heart disease? Shouldn't the greater focus be on preventing heart disease? Or can't the drug companies benefit from that - yes that is sarcasm.

- Why are we vaccinating young girls when the highest rate of occurance of cervical cancer is in women over 50?

-Since when does refusal to receive HPV vaccine become cause to keep a child out of school? What are they going to legislate next; that boys with jock itch can't shower? Sorry if that sounds crass, but that is how illogical this bill sounds to me.

That's my 2 cents.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Silliness

Some of the silly moments caught on film.

















After Christmas Cookies

I had packaged cookie dough left over from Christmas so decided to keep Matthew busy for a little while. I'm quite sure a whole bottle of sprinkles got eaten the in the process, but he had fun.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Too Many Thoughts

My wireless router died so my laptop use was minimial for the past week or so. Plus, I just haven't felt like blogging. I have too much on my mind and no idea how to condense it enough to make any sense to anyone but myself. So, instead I will just post pictures. We have now had 5 weekends in a row of snow. This is very unusual for Denver. I miss the sunny warm days that usually come to melt the snow between storms. Matthew and I built a cardboard castle in the basement and I managed to get myself inside with Tyler in my lap. We had fun until I started feeling claustrophobic. Matthew is wearing his Frog halloween costume.



Monday, January 08, 2007

Hearts

I love this story sent in my weekly e-mail from MOPS (Mothers of Pre-Schoolers)

Hearts by Jolita Peterson, Council Coordinator

"Feel my heartbeat, Mommy!" My five-year-old daughter grabs my hand and places it upon her chest so I can feel the rapid thump-thump beneath my fingers. She is fascinated by hearts - both kinds. She loves to get out her Human Body book and look at pictures of the human heart with its valves and chambers. She enjoys my (rather limited) explanation of how the blood gets pumped throughout the body. She also adores the I-love-you kind of hearts and practices drawing them at any opportunity. I was out of town for a few days recently and returned to find all the mirrors in the house covered with "I w U" written with dry erase marker in kindergarten scrawl.Someday she will ask me about the connection between the heart organ and the heart symbol for love. Someday I will tell her that my love for her is as much a part of me as the blood that flows through my veins. That I began to love her from the moment that my blood began to nurture her body. Someday she will know that I love her so much that I would shed my lifeblood in order to protect her. That love and life are intricately connected in a way that goes beyond vital organs and written symbols. Someday she will understand how very much I love her. Until then, I'm content to demonstrate my love in ways she can understand.I put love notes in her lunch box, cuddle her when she is sick or sad, and kiss and hug her every chance I get. I do my best to listen to her when she has a story to tell (even long and boring ones) and to be patient when she is grouchy (I don't always succeed at that one!). Someday, (all too soon!) these opportunities will be gone and I'll be looking for other ways to show her my love - from my heart to hers.

Friday, January 05, 2007

New Year, Old Friends

Steve and I had the pleasure of spending a brief visit with our old friends Brad and Debbie Ellgen last weekend. Brad was preaching at our church as he and Debbie prepare to go to Germany with Cadence Internationl Missions to run the Baumhalder Hospitality House to serve the army base there. I came away from our visit with a lot of great memories and a fresh reminder of the type of people I want in my life. Brad and Debbie had a profound impact on Steve and I when they were leading the "Change Point" singles group at our church 7-10 years ago - where Steve and I met and started dating. Brad is so down to earth, real, and approachable in his personality and his teaching. There have been very few people in my life who could reach to the core of who I am and make me laugh and want to follow God more than Brad and Debbie. Their lives are about ministry - best done over a steaming cup of coffee or hot meal in their home. I miss them dearly and relish any time that I get to spend with them. I pray God's comfort, strengh, and love for them as they move so far away. The best part of technology is that in a strange way they will still be close through, of all places, their myspace sites.

Friday, December 29, 2006

Snow and Water

Yes, the news reports are true. Denver is getting the second major snowstorm in two weeks and we all have cabin fever. Today was the pinnacle. I got out in the jeep to get us some water and movies. When I got home I placed the five gallon bottle of water on Matthew's wooden stool in the kitchen. About an hour later I heard a noise and rushed to the kitchen to see what Matthew was doing. I got there just in time to see the five gallons of water spilling out of the broken bottle all over the kitchen floor. Dinner didn't get on the table 'til 7:45 after I got most of the water vaccuumed up. Ah well...tomorrow is another day. I have to find a way out of this house!!!

Monday, December 25, 2006

Mr. Fix-it



Matthew got "power" tools for Christmas and he is helping Daddy.

















Merry Christmas!!

We got so busy opening gifts I forgot to take pictures - but we did get 60 minutes of video! This is after the present festivities. Tyler loves his new toy!

I couldn't get Matthew to stay still to take anymore photos. He was running around the basement "dancing" to Daddy playing rock n' roll.






Like, dude, what's up?!?!

Friday, December 22, 2006

I Agree with Emerson!

I found a book of quotes all about boys and can't seem to stop myself from sharing them all with you! One of my favorite I quoted to Steve last night after we got both boys to bed.

"There was never a child so lovely but his mother was glad to get him to sleep."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

That sends a little chuckle through me!!! :-)

Sweet Baby - 4 Months

Tyler is now 4 months old. Hard to believe! He is growing so fast.

Baby Boy

A beautiful treasure,
more precious than gold.
My own baby boy,
to love and to hold.


Like Father, Like Son


We gave Matthew a toy guitar for his birthday. He has barely put it down! We fashioned a "strap" from a belt so he could be just like Daddy. He kept asking Daddy to take him to church so he could play guitar with Daddy's friend Mike and Paster Scott.








Happy Birthday, Matthew!!!

Our sweet Matthew turned 3 today. Because of the 2006 blizzard we thought Steve might have to work Friday and Saturday so we celebrated yesterday (12/21). This dear boy is made of opposites. One minute he is telling me "you're really nice Mommy" while stroking my face and the next he says "I hate you, that is not fair!" trying to hit my back. I try to remember the former and forget the latter. He is growing up so fast and his little mind is working so hard to understand the world around him.

He is CONSTANTLY asking questions - seemingly in staccato succession
what is that mommy?
what is that sound mommy?
what did you say mommy?
are you ok mommy?
what are we doing today mommy?

and if I don't answer right away he keeps asking the question until I respond. Fortunately he is mostly past the "Why?" stage. We had a running joke... when he would ask why over and over I would finally tire of giving a real answer the dialog would go like this:

Matthew: Why?
Mommy: Because elephants are pink.
Matthew: Why?
Mommy: Because clowns are funny.
Matthew: Why?
Mommy: Because horses fly.
Matthew: Horses don't fly Mommy! - giggles and giggles.

Matthew, may you never loose your inquisitive delight in life and learning. Daddy and Mommy love you soooooo much and want to teach you and guide you with humility remembering that ultimately you are God's, lent to us for a few brief years to love and then let go.

BUILD ME A SON, WHOSE HEART WILL BE CLEAR,
WHOSE GOALS WILL BE HIGH, A SON WHO WILL
MASTER HIMSELF BEFORE HE SEEKS TO MASTER
OTHER MEN, ONE WHO WILL LAUGH, YET NEVER
FORGET TO WEEP, ONE WHO WILL REACH INTO
THE FUTURE, YET NEVER FORGET THE PAST.
-AUTHOR UNKNOWN

Peace

There is a beautiful commercial on TV that shows sleeping babies with "Silent Night" as the only sound...although I can't remember what product is being promoted. I love the commercial because SLEEPING babies are so sweet, but I got to thinking about babies in general - how few worries they have and how little stress shows on their sweet faces.

Then I got to thinking... isn't that how God wants us?

He wants us resting in his perfect peace, safe in his loving care with full surrender to his will and full assurance in his perfect plan. Too bad it is so hard to get myself out of the way to experience that peace more often. I want to remember that state of peacefulness this Christmas and carve out those moments when I can experience his perfect peace.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Thoughts on Boys

Boys are found everywhere
on top of, underneath, inside of,
climbing on, swinging from,
running around or jumping to.
A boy is truth with dirt on its face,
beauty with a cut on its finger,
wisdom with bubble gum in its hair,
and the hope of the future with a
frog in its pocket.
-Alan Marshall Beck
Life is either a roaring ADVENTURE, or nothing.
-Helen Keller
A boy's will is the wind's will. And the thoughts of youth
are long, long thoughts.
-Henry Wadworth Longfellow
NOBODY KNOWS WHAT A BOY IS WORTH,
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WE'LL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE,
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BUT EVERY MAN IN A NOBLE PLACE
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A BOY ONCE USED TO BE.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Tyler 3 months



He's such a happy guy!



Tyler has lots of bodyguards!! ;-)








Snow Days

Matthew loves the snow, especially falling down and pretending he can't get up!